Faith In The Lord

Life is very strange. Fate is totally something I believe in. Everything happens for a reason. A reason that is part of Gods plan. Sometimes we do not understand why things happen but we have to believe that if God brought us to it he will bring us through it. Also, we have to stop living in the past. Why dwell on something that hasn't made it to the present time in your life. It is obviously in the past for a reason. The quote I heard a preacher say the other night was, "why put a question mark where God has already put a period". This hits very close to home. I am at a point in my life where I am realizing that I can not try to change the past but embrace it. It has made me who I am today and I could not be happier. I am content where my life is at this point. I am striving to better myself and others while trying to achieve my goals in law enforcement. I can not wait to see what the next six months hold and where I will be by the end of summer. If it is in this very same place, so be it. God has a plan for me and I will follow my heart.

Break From Reality

So, since Wednesday I have been in Keene, New Hampshire visiting Matt and his whole crew. I had absolutely nothing coming up police wise or even job related so I decided to lead an alternative life than the one I was use to. Well maybe. I say maybe because my life for the past year or so has been one of just making the most of life. I haven't had a job since I worked at Gymnastic Spectrum (that's right haha) 13 months ago. I have lived off of my savings and now they are pretty much depleted. So, this one last trip has been the final hurrah. When I get back to Connecticut tomorrow I am forcing myself to pick up a part time job somewhere while I continue to pursue a career in law enforcement.

This trip has opened up my eyes to a broader array of potential avenues. I am largely increasing the spectrum of departments I am going to apply for, meaning not just CT departments. Also, I am waiting for the government application to apply to take the civil service test. A government job in homeland security is something that I have always wanted to do but am finally taking the first steps. Also, I realized that I do not have to live in CT. I am just fine in new places with new people and I have to do want I have to do. I can't be concerned about leaving people behind or losing them. Cause if they want to be in my future they will actively try to be.

There Is Dawn After The Night

So, I have been a lot happier lately. I have been looking at the world in a different light. It is a place that gets darker and darker every single day... people lie more, cheat more, steal more, and overall disregard the cost of sinning more. Though, this does not have to affect the good people and for the most part I believe it doesn't. We all do stupid things sometimes but the good we bring to this world definitely outweighs the bad. The reason I believe I have been happier is because for once in my life I am living for me. Now, this may seem selfish but let me explain. What makes me happy is being with people that are positive and are trying to better their lives. Helping people because it feels good in my heart. And doing things that boost my confidence and make me more healthy.

Sigma Chi, the gym, shooting hoops, running, music... among some other thing.

I do miss some things a lot more than I thought was possible, but now it also seems like life will actually go on. I don't know what the future brings but I know what I want in it.

Thank You

So, I have had a handful of people come up to me or get a hold of me in a variety of ways regarding this blog. I believe you can only comment on my entries directly if you also have a blog. If you want to comment feel free to send me an email at iotaetasig@yahoo.com or facebook message me. I will respond to any and all comments. I really appreciate all of the support and am thankful for everyone in my life. Thank you for caring and being here for me...it is amazing to know how many people read this and care. My spirits are lifted more and more each time I hear people like what I am writing. Thank you again for being in my life and I hope you continue to read!

Looking Ahead

So...I failed my Vernon PD interview. It sucked at first but now I am over it. I learn a lot about the process. I took the interview and thought that I had did pretty well. It lasted about 30 minutes and then they asked me to take a seat outside. I waited for a few minutes and was invited back into the interview room. They had told me that I had really good opening and closing statements. That they took a lot of notes about my dedication to becoming a police officer. I only answered one of their questions wrong. I will not go into it because I do not want that to be held against me in future opportunities. Though, unless I was absolutely perfect I was not going to be passed to the next step. This was my first oral interview and as I have heard it takes the majority of candidates numerous times to pass it... I will NOT fail again. The oral board invited me back in and even though I guess they usually do not tell you what you did wrong they did me in a favor and explained that I had originally answered the question I got wrong right. Then they played mind games and tricked me out of my answer. So, it is what it is. From now on I will stick to my guns and go with my first answers.

I can not dwell in what could have been. I can only move ahead and set my sights on the next goal. Obtaining my CHIP card (the physical fitness exam). As, I am really sick right now this may be hard to do. I have about two weeks to get better but as you all know it takes me a while to recover sometimes. I'll pray.

Correction Officer scores come out early next week. I am excited to see how I did. I hope something comes through with this as it will be great job experience for future opportunities with the police.

In the next six months I could have up to eight more oral exams for police departments depending on invitations, and other exam scores. So, pray with me and have the Lord bless me and watch over me. Thank you.

Pressing On...Somehow

Going on with life. I have a lot of upcoming interviews, tests, and appointments. As much as life brings me down I have to push ahead and keep trying to improve my life.

March 11th - Interview for Vernon PD
March 16 - Correction Officer test results and physical fitness registration
March 28 - Police Officer Physical endurance test

April will include... Another police physical fitness try if I fail the first one, applications for two more police departments, the correction officer physical test, and hopefully more departments asking for me to interview.

For the interview on Wednesday I am going in clean shaven, this will be the first time in over 6 years that I will be baby faced. I hate it, haha. It will all come back so I am not too worried.

I am asking for all your prayers for this interview. If I pass it I immediately start the background check process and get fingerprinted, which moves me considerably closer to my goal, of becoming a cop.

The only thing about Vernon that worries me is that they are only hiring one candidate. There were like 300 people that started the process, 200 passed the written, and 40 were invited to interview. So, it is getting narrowed down but there are still 40 of us. I hope that none of the other candidates have personal connections with the department or anything like that, that will give them an advantage in some way. I can only do my best and I will.

Spring Ahead....Fall Behind. The Minutes Stay The Same

The days pass by at a much slower rate. At least that is how the past two weeks have felt. I wake up in the morning and go to sleep at night. The day isn't filled with joy or happiness. Each day seems like it lasts so much longer because I have nothing to look forward to. Well at least nothing that brings love into my life. I press on only because hope is alive in my head and Christ in my heart. I strive to find the words, the actions, and some possible way to go back in time to make things right... a struggle without end it seems. I pray that God watch over me and help me through this time. Love always