Calling All Christians

It's saddening when I realize what the world has become during days like today. The "rapture" was suppose to happening according to one Christian sect. However ridiculous that is in itself it's not that which upsets me. It's the fact that due to social media I am able to see clearly how few Christian's there are out there. How few people I am certain are actually saved; that have taken the Lord as their savior.

I see it like this though: that it's times like these that the Lord opens our eyes so that we see we need to further His word and His work. There is so much more we all could be doing as Christians. The message we all should be taking from this day is this: there is a lot of work to do out there. We may be saved as Christians, though, in being of the Lord's flock we need to strive to do works in his name. To spread the word to whomever will hear it. While doing so doesn't get you into heaven it should be something that we all do. Something we should be compelled to do. Sing from the rooftops and proclaim the Word of God as living truth. The world needs Christians now more than ever to step up to the plate.

My Judgement

Moral decisions. Each of us has them throughout life. They are the choices that shape our character. What to do and what not to do in certain situations. Sometimes the choices we make are not even dealing with a situation that has come up in our life. It's just a life decision. A road to take...to do something or not to do it. I am often shocked by what other people have chosen to do in their lives. I guess I might also be guilty of shocking others. Though, I think that the majority of my decision have been just and in my eyes morally correct. Sometimes I wish I could have done things differently but I do not regret them. That might seem like a contradiction. It's only because I got something out of that circumstance for the future. Though, writing that seems like a poor excuse for a previous bad decision. I don't know. I judge myself critically and unfortunately I find myself doing the same to others. Not always but sometimes. I need to work on letting the past go. I am big on that. I say it all the time and almost never hold a grudge. I forgive and forget quickly. But that's only when it comes to people directly dealing with me. So, I guess I need to adapt that with others and what I view as their bad decisions.

Fears Are Just Obstacles

My fears. I have a few. I try to be strong and am relatively that way. I am confident and usually portray the characteristics that go along with being so. Though, I do find myself worrying about certain things. First and foremost on my mind is my career. I need to get a job that I am happy with. A job that I can support and raise a family on. I feel as if nothing else really matters at this point in my life. I am ready to make the next step in the progression of my life but without this job I am stuck where I am. It's definitely a driving force within me and I am dedicated to the task but until it comes through it is a fear of mine. A fear in the sense it will not come soon enough. I feel as if there is more I should be doing to attain my goal so from this moment on I am and will be more active in attaining what I need.

My second and last real fear is losing what I have in my life due to the fact that I don't have a substantial career. They are directly correlated. At least I think they are and it makes sense to a certain extent. A career really is all that stands in the way my future. My life will be complete or at least set to be complete when the job comes through.

Fears. We all have them. Mine I guess are not real fears but obstacles that have to be overcome. That will be overcome. Not because of time or other people or because life will make them happen. But because of my resolve in getting what I want. My determination is getting what I deserve. My happiness is at stake and I am not willing to settle for anything less than what I want.

Calendar Date vs Quality Time

Time is relevant. Or maybe said better: time is not relevant, at least in the way most people view it. Let me explain. I have spent years with past girlfriends and developed what I considered loving relationships. From these past relationships I had come to believe that it was normal progression and maybe in a sense it was. Though, right now my past thinking has been blown out of the water. Let me further explain: in two months time I have completely and totally fallen in love unlike anything I have ever known. Two months may not seem like a long time but in those two months I have spent more time with this girl than I had in past relationships that spanned a year or more. Its because of the quality time we spend together at such a frequent rate that I have been able to develop feelings like this, that surpass lesser emotions. Of which took much longer to develop in the past, calendar wise. I hope that makes sense...reading it I'm not sure it does. Though, in my head it makes complete sense. By quality time I mean we have been able to open up to each other, understand each other, and bond over common future goals. I already feel as if I could finish some of her sentences. I love the fact that I know what she is thinking and what she is going to say even before the words leave her lips. At least some of the time. I am reminded more now than ever of that song "bless the broken road". Without our pasts there is no way we would have found each other. By that long road we somehow came together and formed this relationship that neither of us expected to find. It's just so 'fairy tale' it's hard to believe it can be real. Though, it most certainly is...I've never known anything as real as this. Or believed in true love more than I do now. It does it exist. I have met my other half.

True Love

I have written about love and all the feelings that go along with it. I have tried to articulate how in my life I have loved and been loved. Some of you people out there may think I am full of crap or that I'm just back in love but in reality I'm not entirely sure I ever grasped the true feeling and emotion that the word love is suppose to represent. That is...until now. Everything that I thought love was has been completely blown out of the water. Maybe though I have known love in the past. However, perhaps I wasn't letting myself open up to it's full potential or the ability/room for it to develop into what I now know love to be. It's enlightening to a major extent... I feel as if I was living life only half alive. That I was experiencing life half blind. I couldn't live or see what life was really about. I can't even really explain what it is that is different this time around. I just start rambling and in fact have written and rewritten sentences trying to explain my feelings only to delete them. I think though that's part the of this that makes it so much more real. True love honestly can not be put into words. It's an emotion that does beyond all the words in the dictionary. It's something that bonds two people closer together and goes beyond basic understanding. The best way I can describe it is this: It's a glimpse of how God loves us unconditionally. That love can not be put into words. It is a blessing from God himself that two people should be together; when they are able to love each other in a similar way to how He loves us. I believe that's true love.

Curve Balls

Life can throw you curve balls and in all likelihood it will. Dealing with those surprises though can be the tricky part. We all handle them differently. But that's not really what this post is about. A related thought and opening for the following: that being- opening yourself up to be extremely let down and/or hurt. This has been on my mind since talking to a close friend. It's the aspect of relationships that I guess scares most people. That being the unknown. The unknown factor. At any given time someone can just pick up and leave. Cancel you out of their life. It happens I've seen it happen and have witnessed the hurt it causes. It's probably the worst kind of break up. Because when someone just runs away you don't get closure in any sense. I wish I had been better able to talk with my friend and give him some comfort. However, all I could do was listen and offer little advice. It really is tough when you give someone your heart and they shatter it without any real reason. I think it's been on my mind so frequently because it does scare me. I know I am a great person for someone to have in their life so I shouldn't be worried about a situation such as this. Though, my friend is equally as great. I am confident in my relationship, extremely confident in fact though stories such as my friends make me nervous in some way.

The Man I Have Become

It's a strange feeling when you see a change in yourself. I don't think we actually are able to see changes within ourselves too often because it's usually a gradual type of thing. Sometimes though our resolve and character are tested during stressful and emotional situations. It was during one of these such times I noticed and realized I am not the person I had been in the past. I use to react without thinking and that lead to situations becoming more negative than they already were. I have a few things in my life that have led to this transformation. The first and most significant being my relationship with God and turning to prayer as a first resource. Prayer calms me and I am able to ask for guidance. The Lord has always blessed me with relief in some fashion. I am truly grateful. The second being my best friends, mainly Jonathan. I am so extremely lucky to have such a levelheaded, upstanding person in my life. Tonight I realize that as a man of the Christian faith my belief in upholding a strong moral and ethical character will not waver. I am proud of myself for the man I have become.