Family Is Always There

So, these past days have been some of the most confusing days of my life. I find myself not knowing what to do... I am at a point in my life where nothing much makes sense. I find myself relying on the people who are in my life. I honestly do not know what would have happened to me if these friends were not with me. They understand me, they listen to me and give me advice, they are Sigma Chi's. They are my family.

These brothers of Sigma Chi have shown me the true meaning of love, respect, honor and trust. I love my family. You know who you are.

Why Sigma Chi?

Sigma Chi is more than a fraternity. Sigma Chi is more than an organization with members sharing a common bond through a shared experience and an ideal. Sigma Chi is more than hanging out, partying, chapter meetings, and formals. Sigma Chi IS all of those things, however it is not defined by any single word or phrase. These letters I have tattooed to my ankle are as much a part of me as an arm or a leg. They are as much a part of me as any feeling I have ever felt. These letters on my ankle are there in a very physical way, I can not tell you how proud I am to be one of the few that can wear these letters. Though, wearing the letters alone is a great honor, to be known as a Sig is the most humbling thought I can come across. Sigma Chi has instilled in me what it is to be a man. A man with character, and integrity. A brother fully understanding personal responsibility and loyalty. Sigma Chi transformed me from a boy with potential to the man I was suppose to be. Without her where would I be, who would I be with? That thought is a scary one. I honestly do not know. My experience in Sigma Chi has spiritually saved me. My relationship with God was something I was never really sure about. Though, trying to live up to the ideals of the cross I have found myself in many ways. The most important...religiously. I find my God walking side by side with me now, at all times. Unless, like the poem "Footprints In The Sand", he is carrying me (which is often and I know that is why he is always next to me. To help me up when I stumble.)

Sigma Chi has given me faith.

This fraternity, Sigma Chi, does not ever bend or break. Some thing will always be... I will always be a Sigma Chi.

Some of us are lucky enough to have a brother or sister to grow up with. I am very lucky I have my brother Matt. Though, I didn't know it I was intended to have many more brothers than just him. In college I found Sigma Chi and soon I found my brothers that God wanted me to find. I honestly believe that these guys my brothers of Sigma Chi are the best thing that has ever happened to me. It is something when you can be completely honest, and open up to someone. It is something when you can trust someone with your life and you know they will always be there for you. It is something when your heart is connected to someone else in a way you never knew possible. That something is LOVE. I know I love my brothers of Sigma Chi because I am there for them as they are there for me...because we have lived this life together and side by side made it a better place... because I have cried, laughed and everything in between with these men, these brothers, THIS FAMILY.

Sigma Chi has given me eternal friendship.

This is why SIGMA CHI and why I will always be proud to be SIG. I will always be around as long as the Lord lets me.

In Hoc

Keep Life Interesting

So, I am heading down to Danbury and Westconn for the night. I am stopping in on a pledge meeting to give a quick interview to one of the pledges and then possibly swing by the Greek Week event. Oxford has been totally boring the past couple weeks when I am home. That is probably part of the reason I am never here. Plus, I would rather be with fun people. Keep life exciting, you know? Well, I am definitely doing that and I would have it no other way.

If anyone is asking themselves why does Rob still go to westconn and hang out with the people there? Well, the short answer is that Sigma Chi is for life and will forever be a part of me and I will always be involved. I will post the long answer to that question the next time I post.

On The Horizon

So, Nicole's car wasn't going to be out of the shop on time so I decided to go back up there. Hence, ignore that last post at least until this week. I wish that I discovered how awesome Keene was like 5 years ago. The town is just chaos and I love it. I thought Danbury was crazy... it has nothing on Keene. I love the young person, college scene there and not to mention Matt being there :) I suppose it was a good thing Matt and I did not go to the same school for more than a semester. We are a menace to society. Separate we can only cause so much trouble but together we are mayhem. Anyhow, I like New Hampshire more and more every time I go up there.

Today, I found out some departments in the Saratoga, Schenectady area of New York are looking for police officers so I am going to pursue that possible avenue. In less than a month I have the physical test for Connecticut Corrections. I have the running, push ups, and sit ups down. I just need to be able to touch my toes while sitting down. Working on it.

Action = Effort

So, Nicole is coming down to Connecticut for a few days to visit me. I am looking forward to showing her around, even though there really isn't much to do around here. I am glad that I found someone who is willing to put in the effort to try and make things work. Some things are just worth it and it is nice to have someone that feels the same way I do. So, I am very happy she is making the long trek down here from Keene! As in my last post I hope I feel better so that we can both enjoy ourselves while we are together and I am not a sick mess in bed the entire time. Well anyhow, I hope she gets here safely and we have a good four days together :)

I Am Not Down With The Sickness

I really am perpetually sick. Every month a get a cold and it takes a week or two to get over. Then I am finally feeling good, getting into a gym routine and bam I am sick again. I eat decently well, take vitamins, sleep a usual 8 hour night, and exercise. What else do I have to do to stop getting these colds!? My immune system hates me, I am going to go buy vitamins specially for immune system wellness. I think my blood cells or whatever fights colds needs a boost. I just hate being sick so much and it is even more terrible than a regular cold because it never is just a cold. My asthma never ever bothers me unless I get sick. So, it is like a common cold with asthma adding to the problems. I hate it. Pray for me to get well quickly...

Make The Most Of What You Have

I am very happy the summer months are just around the corner. I need to take a break from my stressful life haha. Well actually I am just looking forward to another summer. I hope I have a good full time job by summer but if I don't it won't be all bad. In a week or two I am going to go up to the cabin and start looking for jobs up there that way I can hang out there for awhile. If nothing comes through I get to spend the summer bumming around the lake... sounds appealing. But really I am trying my best to follow my dream, it is just so hard right now. People that usually wouldn't apply to be police officers are now taking the jobs of recent college grads like myself. They have lost there management jobs in all fields and now are taking the entry level jobs in civil service. It sucks because I want this job because of what it means to me and all of the ways it would complete me. These people are taking the jobs because they have no other avenue. They also get the job more easily than I because of their life and job experience. Blah. Economy needs to improve quickly. Well whatever. Live life to its fullest, right? I have no problem there.

Putting Life Back Together

As I try and change my life into what I want it to be I find myself pursuing a new interest of the female persuasion. This is not something I thought I would be able to do for a long while. Though, now that I can look back in retrospect I should have known that once I came across someone that treated me well I would probably fall for them quickly. Well, I found that person. We have almost nothing in common from our past lives, while it seems that we have very much in common at the present time. Also, so far I think we have met at the right time in our lives. By nothing in common I mean we have lead different lives that have taken us to the same point. So, as it is said opposites attract.

We met one night while Matt and I were out for the night at Keene State College. I was visiting and we happened to hit it off over a mistake that I guess was meant to be. So, it happens we met up a couple more times and spent a good amount of time together. We had seemed to click pretty well and we actually were both thinking the same thing... are we ever going to make it official? Well, I now have a brand new girlfriend. Woo! haha.

Right now we live about 2 1/2 hours apart, she being in Keene and I am in Connecticut. Her hometown is in Massachusetts which is more like and hour and a half away. This long distance relationship, if you want to call it that, is something that is more or less new to me. It is exactly what I think I need right now though. I get to spend a good amount of time with her when I am able to see her and we are able to give each other space when needed. I am happy. And by the way her name is Nicole :)