In The Name Of God

Knowing what you are suppose to do with your life is a blessing. Though, getting to that point in your life where you can actually do it is the hard part, at least for me. I want to help people. I want to make this world a better place in a lot of ways. I believe that what I am suppose to be is a police officer. However, lately I am starting to have doubts. All avenues seen to lead to dead ends. I'm not sure if this is Gods way of telling me to pursue a different path or if he is just testing my charcter and determination. Either way though, I hope the Lord gives me some kind of sign so that I can start doing his work the best can, from a position that I feel would benefit the most people. I know I could do a lot more from where I stand now and maybe that is what I am doing wrong. Maybe if I start putting myself out there he will lead me to where I am suppose to be. I do know what I am suppose to do which is a start. Be devoted Christian in a world that continues to turn it's back on just causes, be a witness to the everlasting love of Christ, be a moral- ethical man in a society that capitalizes off the opposite, be a strong, integrity driven individual. I know what I am suppose to be. Ex cept for the flaw that I am human and do make mistakes I am exactly what I am suppose to be. I just want to have a career where I can do all of those things while making a difference in the name of God.

Stability Through Love

Stability. Is there anything that can/will last? The only thing I am positive about is my faith. I can't believe the peaks and valleys I go through on what seems to be a daily basis. Lord I need you to deliver me from these trials. My faith is unwaving, I will not faulter. You are my rock and my salvation. I would pray for strengh but I no longer need it for I lay all my hope in you. I do pray for constant happiness and for you to bless me with love other than which you already have for me. I know that your love is all I need in this world so I feel selfish for even asking though I am only human and want more. I know love because of you and ask for your blessing in finding it here. I also pray that you bestow upon me a way of proving my heart to her who means the most to me. I pray for a constant stable relationship filled with love in the image of our relationship Lord.

A Simple Philosophy

Treat others as you wish to be treated by others. It is a simple philosophy. I mean how can a person live by a code of conduct other than this. I mean you can take one end of the spectrum or the other. Be extremely nice or be extremely mean. Honestly, that is your choice and life decision. Though, step back for a moment and think of different situations throughout your life when you have been treated both good and bad. Now, for all of those situations can you recall how you had managed the others persons act. We can effectively gauge our personal conduct on how well (or unwell) we reacted to being treated poorly. I believe that every act of kindness I can and have shown can do a bit of good. Though, I am also guilty of having good intentions only to have someone treat me wrongly to do the same unto them. What I am trying to say... no matter what other people do to us we need to continue on with trying to always be good. We are all human, we mess up, so we need to be quick to forgive in order to not judge others on past behavior. That is unless the person is perpetually bad and unwilling to see the wrong they have done.

In God I Trust And In Prayer I Will Take My Questions

All my life I have seen good and bad behavior and intentions. People can show great acks of kindness and have a caring nature. On the other hand people can also be negative and down right mean. In the past few years I have made much progress in getting the negativity out of my life. I have changed many of my ways and even the people I surround myself with. Though, recently I have witnessed a person or two that was once very close to me change their ways. It is a weird/sad thing to watch happen. I have never in my life seen someone abandon their principles and morals and dare I say faith like I have now. I could say it is a variety of things that could/have happened in their life but also I don't believe in excuses for ones actions. In the worst of times you have your faith. I have been there... down and out with what I felt was the bottom, but I still had my faith and hope that the Lord would deliver me from sorrow. I just can not fathom a decision making process that pushes Christian values from ones soul. Today, I actually called this person evil. I am not sure whether or not I meant it but it came out. To be precise I said you need to stop being so evil. Then I asked when the last time they prayed was and instead of giving me an answer they asked the same question back to me as if caught off gaurd. I responded immediately, probably like 40 times a day. That event more or less shook me... cause in the past their answer would have been something like when I woke up or when I went to sleep. I honestly don't know how to go about helping or fixing this problem. I am more or less at a loss. Praying about it is the avenue I am going to pursue but I feel like I need to do something about it immediately. I hope something can be done to "stop the bleeding" because unlike the other people I have cut out of my life due to similar reasons this would leave a lasting effect. I really hope that I am wrong and the faith is still there... it is just masked by an intense darkness of sorts. In God I trust, and in prayer I will take my questions.

Yea, I Have

"But you've never looked at a woman and been totally vulnerable. Known someone that could level you with her eyes, feeling like God put an angel on earth just for you. Who could rescue you from the depths of hell."

I Believe

I will never faulter Lord. I live my life in your name. I trust in your word and am humbled by your blessings and grace.