Just Try

I wish I had more people in my life that tried to understand me. I wish I had more people that wanted to be/were there for me. Not only when I am down but all the time. I wish I had more people that cared for the right reasons. Honestly, on a day to day basis there are not that many people out there. It is what it is I guess but I have always said don't judge me unless you know me. By 'know me' I don't just mean you are my friend and we hang out sometimes. I mean know my life, know what I am going through, know what tortments me, what makes me happy, and how I deal with those extremes and everything in between. There are so many of you out there I consider great friends, and there are more and more I use to consider close friends that have pulled away for one reason or another. I do believe a lot of those reasons are my fault, know that. Though, a true friend never leaves someone when they need them most. If you are asking yourself how would I know 'you' need me, there are signs, there are actions, there are times if you take a minute to think about it to tell when your friend (or myself) is down and out. Or hurting and just needs someone to understand/to try and understand/ to talk to/ to just be there. I thank the few people in this God awful world that stay close to the people in their lives that need it most, that try to understand even if its just with sympathy... because not many of us can actually put ourselves in someone elses shoes to empathize unless they have been there. It stikes me as irresponsible to not at least try. Brothers, friends, family be there for the people in your lives at all times. Be a crutch to help someone up, be a shoulder to cry on, have strong arms to hold someone. Be a friend. Now, I am certainly not saying I am a prime example for I have failed at being a friend as well in this regard. I realize that and truly try and be the best I can for others. Though, I am only human...we all are. I put it on everyone (including myself) to try harder to be more for those out there who need us. Just try. It will go further than you could ever expect. And, one day it will find itself full circle when you need the same act of friendship.