Follow Your Heart

With great risk comes great reward...or failure.

I have realized that I need to find someone that has the same mentality as I do. I need someone who doesn't always take the easy road, someone who listens to their heart. What I mean is that too many people will not follow their hearts desire for one reason or another. Too many people won't take a leap down some road because they can't see where it goes. I like the saying "it's okay to hold your heart higher than your head". I find myself doing this probably all the time when it comes to relationships. Maybe thats why they haven't worked out, but maybe thats why I have had a few pretty long relationships. I do not know. I do know one thing...and that is I would have regrets if I didn't follow my heart. It is okay to listen to your heart... it might not always be easy or comfortable. However, if it works out the rewards are great. Finding happiness is your hearts work... let it lead you.

Fear Of Change Is Fear Of Living

Change is a good thing though it seems to me that many people are afraid of doing things differently. People want to live in the past and never escape the fear of change. Painting pictures of the past. By saying this I mean that if we keep living in the past we can not change our lives. We stay idol. If you are afraid of change you can not live your life. If you are stuck in the past you can not live in the present and don't have much hope for a future.

Life Right Now

This summer has seemed to have pasted me by. The past three months have been unlike any other period in my life. Up until last week I was working a minimum of 64 hour weeks; finally I am on a set 40 hour work week. My work week is friday 3pm and I get off Monday at 7am. This schedule has its ups and downs. I miss out of a lot of weekend opportunities but I do get a solid 4 days off each week. Last month I was also promoted to shift supervisor, while the pay is only a dollar more an hour, the real benefit is being able to put it on my resume for a future job.

This is the first time in my life I am making enough money to support myself fully and while that is empowering I feel like life has taken a downgrade in enjoyment. It is setting in more than ever that I am almost 25 years old, out of college, and in the real world. I have some real tough life choices to make. I am afraid of making a wrong decision and hurting myself for the future. Though, I keep coming back with the thought that we only live once and we have to make the most of it before life passes us by. So, the question is...how do I find happiness that will last? I wish I was able to answer that question with some certainty, however the fact is that I do not know the answer at all. All, I can think of doing is living for today and seeing what tomorrow brings when I get there.

Though, I didn't go on vacation, or have many days off, or even go to the beach much, summer was good in a different way than usual. What I mean is I got very close to 3 of my fraternity brothers. These guys have become closer than family to me. Coelho, Jason, Pace I love you guys its been awesome and I hope our bond grows stronger still. I believe it will. I also, met a few new people and formed friendships that I hope survive for more than a little while.

Summer... is more or less over. But the rest of our lives are just beginning.

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I Am A Christian

When I say...I am a Christian,
I'm not shouting I am saved,
I'm whispering I was lost that is why I chose
this way. When I say...I am a Christian, I don't speak of this with pride;
I'm confessing that I stumble and need someone to be my guide.
When I say...I am a Christian, I'm not trying to be strong; I'm professing that
I'm weak and pray for strength to carry on. When I say...I am a Christian, I'm not bragging
of success, I'm admitting I have failed and cannot ever pay the debt. When I say...I am a Christian,
I'm not claiming to be perfect, my flaws are too visible but God believes I'm worth it. When I say...
I am a Christian, I still feel the sting of pain; I have my share of heartaches which is why I speak His name.
When I say...I am a Christian, I do not wish to judge, I have no authority, I only know I'm loved.